Everything starts all again. I wonder if it's my assumption or it's the fact? I really have something to say to you. I think it does make a difference if I said it out but somehow hold back. Now it's even harder to forget you, all those smiles, laughs, jokes and memories that you gave.

I think I've really changed a lot after graduating. I used to joke, mingle, run and laugh around. I dare to say I'm a kid during that time, 19 only okay. But for now, I'm too calm already. People tried really hard to motivate me to talk but I just kept quiet. I really feel like apologizing but somehow my feeling hold me back. Whatever it is, SORRY! =(

Is this the sign of aging or I'm not the old Allan anymore? Why can't I be so hyper like what I am before. And I really get irritated easily nowadays. Tsk-ing and giving stares at people like every now and then.

It seems so hard for me to laugh out loud.
P.S: I will not cry because it's over, I will smile because it happened!